Today is 23 October 2008, the fourth day in MTI apostolic program Intake 11. During the break time, there is just some time for me to look back into some of the record I had put down. I came thru this article I kept in my laptop;
Head Down, Straight Ahead.
'Head down' means I'm unbothered by what the others are doing.
It means I'm personally doing the best I can on my pathway.
It means I'm not anxious about what others are thinking.
It means I'm pre-occupied with what I'm doing not what others are doing.
'Straight ahead' means I stick to my course.
I don't keep changing when it doesn't work the way like I thought it would.
I remain undistracted from tempting turn offs in the road.
Head Down, Straight Ahead!
Stick to the plan.
At the beginning of 2007 while I am praying the Lord give me the word “head down straight forward”. The LORD prepared me not to wary from the way in which HE had lead me into. As I keep on meditate on the word, the Lord continue to speak more and more which all those the Lord speak to me is at the article above. This article is not wrote by me, but I received from a leadership subscription from website around September 2007(a week before Apostolic program Intake 10). I praise the Lord for HE is great, mighty and above all is a LOVING FATHER in heaven. He reminds me again the thing HE had thought me. The article is exactly the same I had received personally from the Lord. It won’t be the advice for the year 2007 only, but I prayed this will be my value and conviction deep down in my heart for the time ahead. Lord, I pray as You unfold You will, teach us to head down straight forward. We won’t be affected by other thing whether it is bad or good. We won’t be affect by circumstances, challenges or even success we can get. In all we do give us the spirit of excellent. Lord this is my desire to have a deeper and deeper fellowship with you no matter what. Please Lord forgive me, and help my unbelief in time I am weak. I ask for Your grace and help to complete the race .
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Properous Blessing~~
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this time i went back to hometown, actually many things out of my expectation..God bless my and my mum financial problem. since i came to kl, wat i depend only my ptptn loan. anything support me? erm, i think no..so how i count also i kenot survive till my last year at utar. i ever think that i wanna give up and dun wan to continue my study dy coz i really kennot continue it. i family owe ppl a lot money. even now i also owe ppl money, but i told my self when i go out to work, must givebek them. i try to use many way to survive my life in kl..in kl, actually a lot of temptations. take lrt only also wanna spend u around 10 ringgit if u travel long . so, actually i continue my degree also by faith, chines always said " see one step walk one step" coz i know that in the final year i sure kenot survive even i save and save. but sometime u really kenot believe that. God make a nice way to me dy. like in the middle i take 3 months go to work part time. my convo have postpone. everything i can see that God help me to make money. if He give me directly sure i will be greedy ma rite. so He wan me use my one energy to exchange the money bek. now i in the final year stage. every thing i very good. last week, i jes get a cek from a association, they willngly to pay me this money and support me finish my degree. this is great news to me, coz i really appreaciate wat they did for me. another is my mum also get the blessing, she jes get an interview letter from government and called her for interview, if she success..sure every months government will subsidise her rm300... that greats..it can minimise her burden, and she can stay in house find some small small thing to do, and no need go out everytime dy. even my job now also get the blessing. last time the utar put me industrial training jes get rm600 permonth, but now my allowance reached 1k. plus the working place near my house. so actually i take bike to work, everytime i no much spend the money..hehe..God is good rite. Dun only think that when we face to bad then scold Him, but when turn good jes say Him good. wat importance here. u believe. wat He called jes do. He wont give wrong way to u. Now, i can say that, i dont worry for my degree dy. some more i already start to save the money for my new car dy..haha..
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Women from heaven
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In this article, I would like to introduce to you one of a great miracles worker of the Lord. I am not referring to those we know like Bill Johnson, Benny Hinn or others, though I have great respect on them. (I like to read their book and watch their work with a learning heart actually). But many times, we forget actually miracles may not just be seeing healing, lame walk again or hands growing out. I acknowledge all this is a very wonderful signs and wonder from the Lord which we should desire to see more and more in our times. However do not forget, around us there might have some of this miracles worker around us. I have a privilege as I got to a bunch around me.
The miracles worker I would like to introduce to you is called Pastor Lois Hor from World Harvest Church. She is a pastor who impacted my life a lot when I just came to know Christ and also even now. She might not yet did miracles which in our definition is "great". However, a lot of miracles she had did which people or even she might not know it. This miracle I am mentioning is shaping the life of others. Just in this past few years, I had noticed besides me, many others learn directly or indirectly how to follow God and serve God from her.
I still remember the first time, I attended cell group where Pastor Lois play the guitar and lead worship. I can't say she is very good, but not bad. Yet she did make some mistake here and there. The thing I saw is, she did it with all her heart, not for impress us or because of her duty. Therefore each time when she challenge me to do something, no matter how hard or impossible, and my heart resent some of those challenges, I will follow her advice because she had show us her example, willingness and submissive. She had submitted to our senior Pastor, Pastor David, for 15 years faithfully. This is another great example which we all should learn. She faithfully does all the work with a willing heart even in the most humble task. Her faithfulness, willingness and dedication had being an example for me in many things in life and ministry.
From a born again believer, Pastor Lois continue to pour her life unto us, and now, I started to serve God full time. When I join the team, Pastor Lois come and told me, now you are not my member but we are co-worker. She not showing seniority with me, but she put hope and also confidence in me. This is truly an example of biblical character where Jesus said, Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do,(John 14:11-13). As a good leader, she put hope for our future and believe all of us will do a great work for the Lord. This is truly one of the unselfish attitude she had imparted into the life of her disciples.
During my most confuse and darkest moment, Pastor Lois had come and rescue me without her own knowing. I never mention to anyone what I faced or encountered except to the Lord thru prayer. Pastor Lois following the guidance of the Holy Spirit had come and minister to me. I knew she had being faithfully and also caringly pray for us. Pastor Lois indeed a very strong woman and leader, yet most of her members knew she care and pray for them a lot.
She is not the only miracles worker around us, I hope this article will help you to notice and appreciate these peoples around you. As well, it will going to motivate your heart to impact other peoples life more and in greater way, whether you are going to start or actively doing so.
I hope this will be like a honey to her soul. Let her know all that she did is not in vain for she has impacted greatly not just my life, but many others. I believe, God will going to use her more and in greater way.
If you want to get to know her more, feel free to visit her blog at http://www.loistan7.blogspot.com/ or contact her at loistss7@gmail.com 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 1:41 PM
The miracles worker I would like to introduce to you is called Pastor Lois Hor from World Harvest Church. She is a pastor who impacted my life a lot when I just came to know Christ and also even now. She might not yet did miracles which in our definition is "great". However, a lot of miracles she had did which people or even she might not know it. This miracle I am mentioning is shaping the life of others. Just in this past few years, I had noticed besides me, many others learn directly or indirectly how to follow God and serve God from her.
I still remember the first time, I attended cell group where Pastor Lois play the guitar and lead worship. I can't say she is very good, but not bad. Yet she did make some mistake here and there. The thing I saw is, she did it with all her heart, not for impress us or because of her duty. Therefore each time when she challenge me to do something, no matter how hard or impossible, and my heart resent some of those challenges, I will follow her advice because she had show us her example, willingness and submissive. She had submitted to our senior Pastor, Pastor David, for 15 years faithfully. This is another great example which we all should learn. She faithfully does all the work with a willing heart even in the most humble task. Her faithfulness, willingness and dedication had being an example for me in many things in life and ministry.
From a born again believer, Pastor Lois continue to pour her life unto us, and now, I started to serve God full time. When I join the team, Pastor Lois come and told me, now you are not my member but we are co-worker. She not showing seniority with me, but she put hope and also confidence in me. This is truly an example of biblical character where Jesus said, Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do,(John 14:11-13). As a good leader, she put hope for our future and believe all of us will do a great work for the Lord. This is truly one of the unselfish attitude she had imparted into the life of her disciples.
During my most confuse and darkest moment, Pastor Lois had come and rescue me without her own knowing. I never mention to anyone what I faced or encountered except to the Lord thru prayer. Pastor Lois following the guidance of the Holy Spirit had come and minister to me. I knew she had being faithfully and also caringly pray for us. Pastor Lois indeed a very strong woman and leader, yet most of her members knew she care and pray for them a lot.
She is not the only miracles worker around us, I hope this article will help you to notice and appreciate these peoples around you. As well, it will going to motivate your heart to impact other peoples life more and in greater way, whether you are going to start or actively doing so.
I hope this will be like a honey to her soul. Let her know all that she did is not in vain for she has impacted greatly not just my life, but many others. I believe, God will going to use her more and in greater way.
If you want to get to know her more, feel free to visit her blog at http://www.loistan7.blogspot.com/ or contact her at loistss7@gmail.com 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 1:41 PM
Trust, and keep trusting
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I am here to share with you something that has been happen to me these few days. But before that please let me have a little bit introduction about this matter.
As you know that this is my last semester and soon i will be joining industrial training right after my examination. So at very first begining of this semester i have already started and requested some of my friend who very close to me to pray for me, bible said mer, when 2 gather and pray God will be among them mer, so that i could get a good place to train.
Then....bla bla bla.....when it's about the middle of sem, one Hong Kong's company came and requested 2 students to train in their firm, but because the aim of that company is more relevent with contract and law,which i actually not much intersted,so i told them that i need some time to think over it( cox this company need high commitment, dunt play play),at the same time i also sent application to others company which having membership with Instituti QS. One of the company agreed to take and asked my resume from my lecturer soon, so this time i rejected the HK's firm since i already get one company willing to accept me. But the company dint give any news or reply after that, so we call them and wanting to ask for further imformation. Who's know the company rejected me by saying that their company only accept bumi. I was so shocked and disappointed when i heard abt that, angry some more for their racism.
I feeling very down on that day, but suppricingly don't know why some of my friends some how sent me some msg of encouragement, and comfort me. After nagging and feeling down for some time, i told myself doesn't matter, it's ok, just follow what God is leading, everything that happen in my life would not be a waste. Of cox ler, human mer as me somehow will thinking and thinking, question and question is it anything that i did and caused this matter happen;immediately i took up guitar and worship Him once i have this thought. Again and again the thoughts coming, again and again i worship the God; my heart calm down for some time, and doubt for some time,then again and again i told myself trust on God.
Finally.....i went to see my lecturer after today examination, actually wanted to ask him what should i do since i didn't get any comfirmation yet. But he given me a big smile and congratuated me,saying that i have been appointed and accepted by a big company,i am actually never send application to this company, is him my lecturer has sent them my resume.He said i m so lucky cox this company never open to private schol but they're willing to give me a place for training. Heard from some classmate told me,this firm is actually quite famous in our field too.
Did you realise what is actually happen to me? God listened to my prayer, and my friend's prayer. At 1st the HK's company came, and rejected by me; i found another one, but i rejected by them; and then another one come and appointed me, which is far more better then what i found for myself.
I share this matter, 1stly, i really wants to share my joy and God's grace in my life. Also want to encourage you,trust and keep trusting on God. Boldly tell Him your needs, and believe that He will take care and provide you the good things far more better then you can think and imagine. I am so glad that He remember my every prayers, needs...He care abt me, even in little little things. 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 1:01 AM
As you know that this is my last semester and soon i will be joining industrial training right after my examination. So at very first begining of this semester i have already started and requested some of my friend who very close to me to pray for me, bible said mer, when 2 gather and pray God will be among them mer, so that i could get a good place to train.
Then....bla bla bla.....when it's about the middle of sem, one Hong Kong's company came and requested 2 students to train in their firm, but because the aim of that company is more relevent with contract and law,which i actually not much intersted,so i told them that i need some time to think over it( cox this company need high commitment, dunt play play),at the same time i also sent application to others company which having membership with Instituti QS. One of the company agreed to take and asked my resume from my lecturer soon, so this time i rejected the HK's firm since i already get one company willing to accept me. But the company dint give any news or reply after that, so we call them and wanting to ask for further imformation. Who's know the company rejected me by saying that their company only accept bumi. I was so shocked and disappointed when i heard abt that, angry some more for their racism.
I feeling very down on that day, but suppricingly don't know why some of my friends some how sent me some msg of encouragement, and comfort me. After nagging and feeling down for some time, i told myself doesn't matter, it's ok, just follow what God is leading, everything that happen in my life would not be a waste. Of cox ler, human mer as me somehow will thinking and thinking, question and question is it anything that i did and caused this matter happen;immediately i took up guitar and worship Him once i have this thought. Again and again the thoughts coming, again and again i worship the God; my heart calm down for some time, and doubt for some time,then again and again i told myself trust on God.
Finally.....i went to see my lecturer after today examination, actually wanted to ask him what should i do since i didn't get any comfirmation yet. But he given me a big smile and congratuated me,saying that i have been appointed and accepted by a big company,i am actually never send application to this company, is him my lecturer has sent them my resume.He said i m so lucky cox this company never open to private schol but they're willing to give me a place for training. Heard from some classmate told me,this firm is actually quite famous in our field too.
Did you realise what is actually happen to me? God listened to my prayer, and my friend's prayer. At 1st the HK's company came, and rejected by me; i found another one, but i rejected by them; and then another one come and appointed me, which is far more better then what i found for myself.
I share this matter, 1stly, i really wants to share my joy and God's grace in my life. Also want to encourage you,trust and keep trusting on God. Boldly tell Him your needs, and believe that He will take care and provide you the good things far more better then you can think and imagine. I am so glad that He remember my every prayers, needs...He care abt me, even in little little things. 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 1:01 AM
“Obedience” hard?
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Oh yeah, this is first time Mabel Lee post own sweet,sour,bitter and spicyyy..in this great blog. Hopefully no sour and bitter, :D Let's us keep moving on. D45 & D62, come'on!!! Below is just my feeling i have before...
Children obey instructions from parents. Christians obey the voice of God. Sound like simple and easy. But, hard to act on it. Got one time,i was asked to help search some 4 seosons pictures. Opened many browsers. There were so many season pictures. Some even i hard to define whether that is summer or autumn or spring. Confusing my eyes…aha.
Then it was just suddenly one question dump into my mind. "Do you ever have seasons in your life when it seems like every time you go to church and every time you spend time in prayer or open the Bible, you receive any revelation from God? Very frankly, i do but also very less. One moment, in spiritually, it may seems like great. Then suddenly, something happens. And, i start drying up in spiritual things. It seems like nothing different what i pray or how much i read the Word. I was becoming so dry my spirit like creaking. Yet, i still didn’t know what the cause was. I was thinking is it any hidden sin in my life i not yet confess? I was praying and asking continuously. I recalled and found the last thing God told me to do that i didn’t do.
It’s probably nothing big and may seemingly just a small thing. But, those small small disobedience will dry up the flow of the Spirit. Anyway, come boldly to the throne of God and repent. Then pick up where we left off and do what God directed. So, obeying the voice of Holy Spirit is never a small thing…Even Jesus Himself remained in the will and the love and the peace of the Father. And so He continued the path of obedience, NO MATTER WHAT!! So, we all are called to follow. It’s that simple. 1 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 11:06 AM
Children obey instructions from parents. Christians obey the voice of God. Sound like simple and easy. But, hard to act on it. Got one time,i was asked to help search some 4 seosons pictures. Opened many browsers. There were so many season pictures. Some even i hard to define whether that is summer or autumn or spring. Confusing my eyes…aha.
Then it was just suddenly one question dump into my mind. "Do you ever have seasons in your life when it seems like every time you go to church and every time you spend time in prayer or open the Bible, you receive any revelation from God? Very frankly, i do but also very less. One moment, in spiritually, it may seems like great. Then suddenly, something happens. And, i start drying up in spiritual things. It seems like nothing different what i pray or how much i read the Word. I was becoming so dry my spirit like creaking. Yet, i still didn’t know what the cause was. I was thinking is it any hidden sin in my life i not yet confess? I was praying and asking continuously. I recalled and found the last thing God told me to do that i didn’t do.
It’s probably nothing big and may seemingly just a small thing. But, those small small disobedience will dry up the flow of the Spirit. Anyway, come boldly to the throne of God and repent. Then pick up where we left off and do what God directed. So, obeying the voice of Holy Spirit is never a small thing…Even Jesus Himself remained in the will and the love and the peace of the Father. And so He continued the path of obedience, NO MATTER WHAT!! So, we all are called to follow. It’s that simple. 1 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 11:06 AM
Matthew 19:30
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today i going to share a verse, Matthew 19:30, "But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first." for the first impression toward this verse, what you think about this verse? if u read thourgh the story chapter 20, the Parable of the workers in the vineyard. you will see the owner hire men to work in his vineyard. he pay the wages to the men, in the last the owner also hire the new people to work for him. but the new worker working hour less than them and get the same payment with them. do you think that it was unfair to every one? for me i really felt that very unfair to the workers, all doing the same thing, still work in long time, but the new worker jes work less than them. get the same payment, how fair? but if you think about it.actually the owner is very fair to his workers. coz if u think thorugh, if the owner do not hire the workers, they will no money to support their family. actually i jes want to tell, "the first shall be the last, the last shall be the first" just like our life, sometime you use 10 years to be a top manager, but another person he jes use 5 years to be the top manager. the salary same with you but working hour less than u. dun have such thinking in ur mind to think that the boss bias to every person. if you think. Jesus told us this verse ithink that He want to tell us, no matter u r the first accepted Christ or the last person to accept Christ. in God Kingdom, we r the same, dont think they just accepted Christ but why Grow so fast in the church. the first person will be the last, the last person also will be the first...remember that..hehe
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God Able to change You
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still remember the chuong eng friend? called Boon Long? if for previous, i think i able to be a good friend with him..hehe..why? coz he is that kind ppl same with me. so sometime chuong eng told me about him, i think i already knew it the next what he wanna to say for his friend. actually, i am also the sensetive ppl, i very care people how to see me, how much they care me also. totally same wit boon long wat the chuong eng told u before. but when i started to grow, our vision must put far a bit dy, God always train me in the good way. until now i really learned a lot, and i try to be more better also.even i make wrong or what,God will spoke to me through someone. sometime, the message shared to me totally related to my weakness. in my life always facing a lot of thing we could not make it by our own strengt, so i will surrender all the things to Him, to do for me. even he also teaching me in my life. i learn it. long long ago, i hink i lacked of patience, now i knew it, i try to overcome it. although i still cannot do it 100%, i already minimise it also. although now i a lot of assignments need to do. but i enjoy it..May God Staying with me always..Halleluyah!!
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Faithful
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The month of June just passed. Month of June is the month which 2 of our very special bro and sister birthday. They are Joyce and Max. If I can only use one words to describe about them, I would choose FAITHFULLNESS, 2 of them had show me this quality in their life. Besides many other great qualities in their life, both of them are really faithful in their doing. Whether towards God, people or life. In the past few years of knowing both of them, I believe all of their friends will agree with me, that both of them are people with integrity. They never pretend in their life, and always so honest with people around them.
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My Hope for wedding day
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Wedding is coming very near. I really want to thank God for a bunch of great people that help me to make this wedding successful. They ask me what I want most. Actually, all other thing is not so much important to me except people which dear to me are happy. I hope all those people who is so important in my life to feel happy as well. I hope my wedding is not just “mine” wedding but it will be “our” wedding. A special day, not just for me and Mabel but it will be a memorial day for our parents, our beloved spiritual family, bro n sister. This will be a day, that will engrave something so beautiful and memorial to everyone of us. A day which will mark a significant feeling and support to our life. I think this is more important than any other thing else. Hope you all be happy as well. Coz all my happiness, you all are the contributor and without you all, we won’t be where we are right now. Thank you for you all.
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God answered my prayer~~
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i was a diciple house leader in alpha, since i accepted to be a leader for this house. people jes like a seasonate and keep move out. in my heart very sad, coz i dun know what i can to do? but i still let them to go. this house getting naked after one of my housemates move out, coz he took along all his refridgenerator, washing mechinese ant etc..suddenly, my house needed a lot of things. in my heart, jes know worried coz i scare i kenot be a good leader. but i got tried to learn how to be a good leader. many times, i felt i want to give up but in the end, a strong thing jes keep remind me dun. yes, sometime this feeling hard to describe. i try and try, finally i started to pray out. Lord, in Your name Lord, i can do all thing. even You sacrified Ur self, although people aways You, but You never forsake us. actually i am the impatience person. but i try to learn from this way. i must be patience for every circumstances. i really need lots patience in my life. someime i still felt i no mature enuff. i try to make prayer, told God. everytime after i pray in spirit. i will like whole body very relax. when focus on Jesus, i jes felt i like a baby on His hand. it is good news wanna share out. Lord gave me a cheaper fridge to my house. first i tot that RM80 sure very old and small, even my housemates also told me check carefully b4 purchase it. i pray for God, Lord make the fridge biger Lord, dun small small one. God bless, i get shocked after i saw the fridge. last time my owner wanna sell to me RM300 with very small one. but now i get one only RM80 with big one. the fridge still function well. i give thank to my Lord. coz Him, I GET THE GOOD THING. this few days, i always like attacked by something. i very sad. after took out my bible, but i dint know which verse i wan to read. i jes surrender to God, i told Him, now i open which page, that page verse is u wan to tell me. it real, the verses God gave me suddenly soak in my heart. medidate carefully. actually, i still got many thing need God to guide me and lead me. sometime dont thing this like cheated u. but it is real. confess Jesus as ur Savior. You will get u different with b4...
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When problems come....
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I was in very bad mood, and was struggled a lot in my own problems for quite some long times. The funny part was, I have tried to make myself cool down, and tried very hard to figure out what was going wrong actually so things lead to went wrong. I thought I was already cool down, but actually my temper raised some more, thanks for my stubbornness. haha.
And because of I was too concerned about my situation, until I started to close down every door in my life, not allowing peoples come in and even God. Although I didn’t forgot to tell God about everything, but I too sad to hear n see Him. I felt very very, extremely lonely that time, cause seemingly God also hiding from me. Until one day, I really cannot take it and cry to God asking Him why, why He so quiet when I need Him the most, why He didn’t answer my questions…..why…why…but what I got then was only silence. And a dream. There’re broken rainbow showings in the night time. If you know me well then you should know rainbow is so meaningful to me, it has represent the promise of God. From that moment on I was like giving up everything, expect no one could understand and help me.
Then, I live life as usual. Every night I cry myself hiding down under my blanket, kept all the anger and sadness by myself. Ya, I am not happy because I can’t forgive and forget for something what peoples has done to me. There’re very tired and tough times, fighting to my heart everyday to prevent doing silly things. After some other days, I was in Sunday praise celebration; don’t know why my tears jus fall uncontrollable, then, my Pastor said, maybe nobody could understand how sad our story but God does. Some area just too hard to forgive but God knows everything. (slightly different a bit)
I didn’t think too much on it actually while the Pastor was talking. But it’s enough to move me to make another prayer to God. I asked God helps to forgive and forget the person, cause I can’t do it by myself, and I determine continue to care and love the person. After that I could forget slowly the hurts and pain the matter it’s bring, of cause still I would have a little worry what if I get hurt once again. But I chose to surrender all up to God who cares.
Until last night, something that I couldn’t understand suddenly make clear it’s own. Have you ever read Psalm13:1-2? it said:”O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart everyday? ” Even faithful and godly King David has written this, sometimes felt that God was absent. The greater our troubles, the farther away God sometimes seem to be. But God actually didn’t really giving up on King David. I used to think God has also giving up on me, but that is just what I think, what I feel. The truth is feeling could lies.
Have any one else seen rainbow in the dark sky before. That is impossible. Through reflecting the light of sun and the waters in clouds only rainbow show. But then I have seen, the promise of God. Even no sunlight, the problems come, God has promised that He will not leave us. When I revise my mailbox, only I found the answer that I looking for was actually there, just I didn’t realize and too focus on the my situation.
I am so thankful because God is God, who is always gentle and love. Never giving up on me. When problems come, tell the problems that we have God in our life instead of telling the problems are too hard to us. Then slowly you would see things started to change. 1 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 8:07 PM
And because of I was too concerned about my situation, until I started to close down every door in my life, not allowing peoples come in and even God. Although I didn’t forgot to tell God about everything, but I too sad to hear n see Him. I felt very very, extremely lonely that time, cause seemingly God also hiding from me. Until one day, I really cannot take it and cry to God asking Him why, why He so quiet when I need Him the most, why He didn’t answer my questions…..why…why…but what I got then was only silence. And a dream. There’re broken rainbow showings in the night time. If you know me well then you should know rainbow is so meaningful to me, it has represent the promise of God. From that moment on I was like giving up everything, expect no one could understand and help me.
Then, I live life as usual. Every night I cry myself hiding down under my blanket, kept all the anger and sadness by myself. Ya, I am not happy because I can’t forgive and forget for something what peoples has done to me. There’re very tired and tough times, fighting to my heart everyday to prevent doing silly things. After some other days, I was in Sunday praise celebration; don’t know why my tears jus fall uncontrollable, then, my Pastor said, maybe nobody could understand how sad our story but God does. Some area just too hard to forgive but God knows everything. (slightly different a bit)
I didn’t think too much on it actually while the Pastor was talking. But it’s enough to move me to make another prayer to God. I asked God helps to forgive and forget the person, cause I can’t do it by myself, and I determine continue to care and love the person. After that I could forget slowly the hurts and pain the matter it’s bring, of cause still I would have a little worry what if I get hurt once again. But I chose to surrender all up to God who cares.
Until last night, something that I couldn’t understand suddenly make clear it’s own. Have you ever read Psalm13:1-2? it said:”O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart everyday? ” Even faithful and godly King David has written this, sometimes felt that God was absent. The greater our troubles, the farther away God sometimes seem to be. But God actually didn’t really giving up on King David. I used to think God has also giving up on me, but that is just what I think, what I feel. The truth is feeling could lies.
Have any one else seen rainbow in the dark sky before. That is impossible. Through reflecting the light of sun and the waters in clouds only rainbow show. But then I have seen, the promise of God. Even no sunlight, the problems come, God has promised that He will not leave us. When I revise my mailbox, only I found the answer that I looking for was actually there, just I didn’t realize and too focus on the my situation.
I am so thankful because God is God, who is always gentle and love. Never giving up on me. When problems come, tell the problems that we have God in our life instead of telling the problems are too hard to us. Then slowly you would see things started to change. 1 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 8:07 PM
House Alone
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Coming from a not so prosper family, having a room for our own is more like a dream. I believe in most people heart at least there is a time we hope to have a room by our own. Our private areas where we have the full freedom and liberty to do what we hope and want. I do have similar wish some of the time though I knew it’s quite impossible. When I start my college life, and start staying out side, still this remains just a wish because of finance situation. Not only me, but quite a lot of other students as well, though we can hear mostly want to have a room by themselves in an affordable price, still majority sharing their room with friends or stranger.
Finally, my this “wish” (though I don’t really like it anymore) to have a room by myself come true. Not only room, but now I have a house all by myself. It turns out to be quite frightening I am all alone. After this many years of staying together with people. If have a chance to choose again, I still want to share room with other people even though I have the money to pay for a room by myself. The experience is too much to miss it. I will never forget all those “fight” and “talking” with my housemate and roommate. I gain much compare with those “privacy”. Actually staying with people, we still have much privacy if we able and knew how to communicate and relate with people.
Now coming home, and only silent is waiting for you, is truly a not an enjoyable feeling. I knew why so many rich people who have BIG houses are feeling empty. Though I am not there yet, I can magnify what I face and if I am at that situation, I will be drive to crazy or probably be a suicide. However, I thanks God, because as I start to look out of myself and my house. There is tremendous beautiful thing and people God put around me. All those wonderful, handsome, pretty, and God-fearing man and woman of God. They are all full of love, kindness and hope. Seeing them around me, is truly like a honey to the depressing soul. It brings a lot of soothing and sweetness into my life and my soul. Never forget our lovely God the source of love. I can’t imagine, how I my life will be without HIM in my life.
I understand all the people won’t be around me all the time, yet for me all of them is like sun in the sky. Though dark cloud can hide it from my view. But my sun is always there shining onto me, giving my heart a warm that can’t never be take away. Deep in my heart, I wish to say, I love you all and thanks for the time we went thru, and also we will go thru it together in time to come.
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Finally, my this “wish” (though I don’t really like it anymore) to have a room by myself come true. Not only room, but now I have a house all by myself. It turns out to be quite frightening I am all alone. After this many years of staying together with people. If have a chance to choose again, I still want to share room with other people even though I have the money to pay for a room by myself. The experience is too much to miss it. I will never forget all those “fight” and “talking” with my housemate and roommate. I gain much compare with those “privacy”. Actually staying with people, we still have much privacy if we able and knew how to communicate and relate with people.
Now coming home, and only silent is waiting for you, is truly a not an enjoyable feeling. I knew why so many rich people who have BIG houses are feeling empty. Though I am not there yet, I can magnify what I face and if I am at that situation, I will be drive to crazy or probably be a suicide. However, I thanks God, because as I start to look out of myself and my house. There is tremendous beautiful thing and people God put around me. All those wonderful, handsome, pretty, and God-fearing man and woman of God. They are all full of love, kindness and hope. Seeing them around me, is truly like a honey to the depressing soul. It brings a lot of soothing and sweetness into my life and my soul. Never forget our lovely God the source of love. I can’t imagine, how I my life will be without HIM in my life.
I understand all the people won’t be around me all the time, yet for me all of them is like sun in the sky. Though dark cloud can hide it from my view. But my sun is always there shining onto me, giving my heart a warm that can’t never be take away. Deep in my heart, I wish to say, I love you all and thanks for the time we went thru, and also we will go thru it together in time to come.
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God always with us
still remember that, people always asked:" Who is God". then we will get the answer the God is human, and he did a lot of miracle things and the rest cannot do it. He sit at the high position. is this call "God"? when i started to close with Christian. i realised that "God" was different with what we talking before. God, we cannot touch it, cannot see through our eyes, why we belive this world have God? rumour? Definately No. Some people they really want to see by they own eye jes able to belive. but what we see, not by our eyes, is our heart. ur heart is the play the importance role in our body, without heart, we die. and sometime, if u think carefully, who created trees? who created animals. who created earth? is it same with wat the science said it. the earth created after the space stone bang with each others? then this space must have many earths, coz it from a big earth bang out with small small pieces to every where. although science getting moden and high tech, however science still cannot replace God place. some miracle thing happen, science still cannot find out the reason. remember eyes cannot replace everthing, eyes cannot be like our nose. very simple and asking u, how u feel around got air? is it u see it by ur own eyes? No, u cannot really see it, but u sense it. God also cannot see by our own eyes, u must look by ur spitritual eyes. God's always with us. He no bias for every one, jes like ur parent. this world cannot without Love. Power of love will overcome everythings. we love our parents, we love our brother, we love our sister, we love our friends, we love everyone. pray with ur fully heart. do it what He tell u to do. be his follower. Belive it! no matter u are, u also under His protection. I can say with loudly and proudly, God love You!
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Caleb feeling on 29 May 2008
Labels: Appreciation God's people, from Caleb
29 May 2008, today is the day, our beloved Bro-in-Christ going to Liverpool for 3 mths. Though it is not very long, but in my heart really felt a bit “bu she de” haha. Yet we bless him with all our heart. We hope in this phase of his life, God will going to unfold many more beauty and wonderful plan for his life.
Hai Chuan indeed is a really good bro to many of us. Recently get to know him more closely, as we both stay together. From his life he instills in me a lot of good thing. Though outside he looks very gentle, yet this is a man of determination. I observe, he is very good in many many thing, study, sport, cooking, handcraft, household……n many more. I start to realize, he is so good in many thing because, of his attitude towards life. Never compromise and do all things with all his heart. Even though thing he might not good at first. For example, we are recording a video clip for Joseph birthday, Hai Chuan did very well and also excellent though at first he said he can’t make it. I believe at first he really don’t know, but because of a willing heart, he able to perform so well with heart and soul in it.
Besides not taking thing lightly, he also very serious and hardworking. Seldom see him giving excuse can’t do certain thing. I believe this is something we should learn from our brother. No need to mention his patience and kindness, though SMALL number of ppl actually sees him angry before. Which I think its normal and yet his angry is not invalid and it’s not that damaging type of anger, only the side of seriousness I believe.
There are many things I would like to write down, however for the sake of not being labeled as “cheong hei” and nagging I would like to put a stop here.
There is also something interesting during our journey to KLIA, we all had a really good time of talking together. And because of this fellowship, I wan to be more active in this blog and hope other will also. Ashley remind us again that this blog is not only for putting picture, birthday. It also a place where ppl will get to know Christian, God, Jesus more and more. Here ppl will see clearer, how can we love God and love others in a practical and real way. SO let us gambatteh to make our blog a place we want to visit frequently.Amen 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 3:46 PM
Hai Chuan indeed is a really good bro to many of us. Recently get to know him more closely, as we both stay together. From his life he instills in me a lot of good thing. Though outside he looks very gentle, yet this is a man of determination. I observe, he is very good in many many thing, study, sport, cooking, handcraft, household……n many more. I start to realize, he is so good in many thing because, of his attitude towards life. Never compromise and do all things with all his heart. Even though thing he might not good at first. For example, we are recording a video clip for Joseph birthday, Hai Chuan did very well and also excellent though at first he said he can’t make it. I believe at first he really don’t know, but because of a willing heart, he able to perform so well with heart and soul in it.
Besides not taking thing lightly, he also very serious and hardworking. Seldom see him giving excuse can’t do certain thing. I believe this is something we should learn from our brother. No need to mention his patience and kindness, though SMALL number of ppl actually sees him angry before. Which I think its normal and yet his angry is not invalid and it’s not that damaging type of anger, only the side of seriousness I believe.
There are many things I would like to write down, however for the sake of not being labeled as “cheong hei” and nagging I would like to put a stop here.
There is also something interesting during our journey to KLIA, we all had a really good time of talking together. And because of this fellowship, I wan to be more active in this blog and hope other will also. Ashley remind us again that this blog is not only for putting picture, birthday. It also a place where ppl will get to know Christian, God, Jesus more and more. Here ppl will see clearer, how can we love God and love others in a practical and real way. SO let us gambatteh to make our blog a place we want to visit frequently.Amen 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 3:46 PM
Hai Chuan, our dear brother
Labels: from ashley
He is leaving, to U.K.to continue study.
All the best to him.
And we'll going to miss him and pray for him and support him at here,wating for his coming back.
Dear brother, take very good care of yourself~ God bless

Max and darren.

Kenny and John

Jason , alex , edison and Hai Chuan climbing on staircase =.=

Cathy, Joseph and Hai Chuan

Hai Chuan and Caleb

out side the restorant,leaving soon...

Jason and him taking at Dragon-i dinner as farewell.

captured at KLIA
p/s:even u r so far from us but stil u stay in our heart(^o^) 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 2:16 AM
All the best to him.
And we'll going to miss him and pray for him and support him at here,wating for his coming back.
Dear brother, take very good care of yourself~ God bless

Max and darren.

Kenny and John

Jason , alex , edison and Hai Chuan climbing on staircase =.=

Cathy, Joseph and Hai Chuan

Hai Chuan and Caleb

out side the restorant,leaving soon...

Jason and him taking at Dragon-i dinner as farewell.

captured at KLIA
p/s:even u r so far from us but stil u stay in our heart(^o^) 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 2:16 AM
WHC church camp at Peace Heaven
3days 2nite, guess what has happen in peace heaven? lol, very great n memoreable moment.





Q-ing to play car race at genting theme park

lol, under big rock

taking instruction from game master, daniel

waiting for bus,chole n joyce 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 12:58 AM

Q-ing to play car race at genting theme park
lol, under big rock
taking instruction from game master, daniel
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Alex b'day~
Labels: from ashleybirthday cake~~
alex is "kacau-ing long life mee"
Happy belated birthday to dear Alexy~~ 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 12:50 AM
Caleb Lee our leader's 28th birthday
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Yoyo~~dear caleb, older 1 years,opps....should be,mature one more year jor! haha. This is the "last sigle birthday" u have loh~(har, u ask what is last sigle b'day ar?oh, means he is going to marry soon loh, with our mabel sis). The pictures was taken during dinner at wong kok, memorable moment~

Group photo and the present.

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Caleb and his birthday gift which is made by our ugly n funny pictures(k re fei at side ther = joseph) 1 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 3:45 AM
1st March 2008
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This is the 1st outing in year of 2008.
Although that morning keep on raining, but we're stil determined to go Taman Pertanian whish droppend at Shah Alam.Finally the rain stop and we does enjoy and create a very meaningful n happy memory together. Also the 1st time i use up all my energy to cycling...wahaha.

Get ready, our journey start at here --> Taman Pertanian

Group photo taking at the front door of 4season house. People really look good when smile from their heart.

Tulip,capture at 2season house.

Ashley and Joyce and Tulips (taken by Caleb)

Group photo taking while break time to makan~~

Ji Wen, Kenny, Ashley,Max and Zoe at Fish farm ( it;s a natural river, should have big finish there (^o^))

Phota taking at down stair of dam~ Ashley, Zoe and Joyce

Hai Chuan and Edison stading in the middle of the water.
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Caleb our leader with his cool face~
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Alex with cool sunglass 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 10:28 AM
Although that morning keep on raining, but we're stil determined to go Taman Pertanian whish droppend at Shah Alam.Finally the rain stop and we does enjoy and create a very meaningful n happy memory together. Also the 1st time i use up all my energy to cycling...wahaha.

Get ready, our journey start at here --> Taman Pertanian

Group photo taking at the front door of 4season house. People really look good when smile from their heart.
Tulip,capture at 2season house.

Ashley and Joyce and Tulips (taken by Caleb)

Group photo taking while break time to makan~~

Ji Wen, Kenny, Ashley,Max and Zoe at Fish farm ( it;s a natural river, should have big finish there (^o^))
Phota taking at down stair of dam~ Ashley, Zoe and Joyce
Hai Chuan and Edison stading in the middle of the water.
Caleb our leader with his cool face~
Alex with cool sunglass 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 10:28 AM
Very Touching Video~~
Labels: Prepared by Alex
yesterday somebody shared this video to me, i felt quit touching for this video. this video talk about how her meet the Jesus, and Jesus give her a lot of wonderful momory and hope to her. but in the middle, she starting greed, her love money, she started takes alcohol, all the sins she make. she wan sucide, but in the end , her make a decision to turn bek to Jesus, how she pass through the obstagle. God is good always. although the video very short, but it really take the message to us.
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0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 12:47 AM
21th Feb -Cell Group at Joseph New House
Labels: Prepared by Alex
21th Feb night, we had the cell group at our brother new house. it was the first time we fellowship at there. we shared some holiday events with each other and also pray for joseph new house.
We Worship the Lord
Joseph Playing guitar
Sharing something latest
Listening What He/she sharing
Ji wen & Kerropi
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20th Feb
Labels: from ashley
今天偶跟着咱们的“科力”还有“科力嫂--〉美爆”挑选他们的礼服去了~~ 这间位于pudu附近的婚纱馆礼服好少哦,不过幸好不多,不然“美爆”会成为第一个因为换衣服累昏的准新娘,呵呵~~ 放上来的只不过是区区几张小图,皆因偶是不可能一次给你post 80张吧!!慢慢欣赏吧~~





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The Important of Cell Life
Labels: from Alex
The family of God is a very huge one, comprising people all over the world who have received God's forgiveness through Jesus Christ. In your whole life-time you will not be able to get to know one. But God has established smaller
units called churches where you can worship together with others, and find
teaching and guidance in your new life. Churches in turn have established small groups called cells where you can relate to other believers in a meaningful and supportive way. 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 10:15 PM
units called churches where you can worship together with others, and find
teaching and guidance in your new life. Churches in turn have established small groups called cells where you can relate to other believers in a meaningful and supportive way. 0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 10:15 PM
27/1, Kian Weng Big Big Day!
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27/1 we celebtrated our kien weng brother birthday, although he moved to sg long dy, however he still have the passionate heart t come back here. anyway we wish him happy birthday and happy new year!
( Yeah, one of us brother birthday today, celebrated with him at E-fatt shop, wangsa maju)
( after sang sung, He cut the cake for us)
( 2 joke brothers reunion, talk nonsense)
( ppl who involved in the party)
( in the end,we pray for him and wish him happy!)
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0 what do you say? JOYed by D 45 at 1:13 AM
Our Brother Hai Chuan Birthday OoOo.....
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20.1.2008 we are celebrating Our lovely Hai Chuan birthday. although looks simple, the atmospere still there. Hai Chuan not only our member but he also the good chef in our section. this year, he received a big bible and we hope that he can appreciate the gift. Thanks God, we have a good brother here, May God bless him always..! and "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAI CHUAN" again!
( Hai Chuan smelling the cake, wakaka, coffee flavor)
(present and gift for him.)
(Congra Hai Chuan get the 1st prize.)
(In the end we pray for him for his study and the life in this year)
(This year he will be better than last year. in the future, we hope that not only us celebrate birthday for u, but we also see ur own cg members come along u. win the souls and this jes the good present for ur self!)
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